always.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid

Monday, March 27, 2006

H.a.p.p.y

I am one happy woman..

I dont know why..

But I am definitely happy..

YOU ( you know whoever you are )

you should be happy to see me happy..

We all have problems, no matter how big or small,

we choose to run or overcome it..

I moved on, I think you should too..

Its time..

I know its difficult, I am trying hard myself..

And I think I did it..

Slowly, but surely I moved on..

I feel good now..

I am sad, but no one knows..

I smile, so that everyone thinks I am happy..

I am angry, but I dont know how to show it..

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy

I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry,

I'm going to let you go, and even if it kills me

I'll still be smiling

Monday, March 20, 2006

Changes

There's a lot for me to change these days.
So many things I wish to change.
I dont know what, why & when I am gonna do it.
But for sure, my life IS changing.
For the better or worst, WHO knows?

Well, its been exactly 10 days since I last updated my blog.
My PC at home broke down on me, and I guess its time for me to get a new one.
Super new one, and super lotsa money gonna be spent on dat new damn pc.

I've been busy with lots of things.
If u ask me to list in details, I cant answer that question.
If u ask me why, its becos I dont know what I have been busy with.
Its been a fun week.
Its been a stressful week.
Its been a busy week.
Why? What? How? When?
Most important of all, there has been lots of ups & down this week.

I was ecstatic...
I was upset...
Iwas sad...
I was angry...
I was nervous...
I was super-happy...
I was confused...
And for all these reasons, I am lost ( again... )

The upcoming week would be busier... Or am I?

I love me, my life and myself..

And I have to prepare myself for something that may be better, but also worse.

What am I supposed to do?

How am I supposed to react?

What am I supposed to say?

This is shitty.

I'm a confused shit.

I dont even know what I am talking about.

But what's most important is,
I AM HAPPY!!!!!

Friday, March 10, 2006

I am bored..
I dont know what to do..
Feel like taking mc, but what the heck, today is the last day of work..
No plans for today, surprisingly, its the wkend Fad!!

Should I go for dinner later?
I feel like eating Sakae Sushi, I'm craving for the Salmon Sashimi.
Yummie!!

I miss them. The people at The Spa.
I miss their laughter, their craziness, the fun, their smiles.
I miss Sue, the person who always made me laugh out loud. =)
I'm sure you are much happier in True 'Est.

Well, life goes on and there is nothing much that is going on in my life at the moment.
Everything else is the same.
I'm a much happier person nowadays, and that is why I've put on weight. hehe..
I should have done it long time ago and not wait till now to make things happen.
Well, I realised there is no point in regrets and you just have to learn that we humans are never perfect, and that we make mistakes all the time.

Oh ya, before I forgot, yesterday, I saw someone whom I dont really fancy that much.
It really looks like her, and I pretended not to see her.
I dont know, the hatred is just in me.
I dont care if she is older than me, but she should have known better than to interfere in other people's life, and especialy family.
I dont hate her, cos I know it takes 2 hands to clap, but I just dont see eye to eye with her anymore.
I dont care what she thinks, and I know that she thought that I didnt care much, but I guess, she is wrong.
My family's still my family no matter how good or bad we all are.

2 more days for that tingy and I'm already so hyped up.
I'm a nervous wreck, and I know that my time is up soon.
I screw up the other day and I dont have any more confidence in moving on.
But well, I know for sure that I'm not hoping so much to move on to the other stage, as much as I wanted the glitz and glamour. hahahaha....
So naive of me!!

Well, I miss my brother.
He's coming back from his camp today and after a week, I'm gonna see him!!
Yahhoooo!!!
& I miss Irfan, he's only gonna come on Sunday.
The fatty bom-bom.

I went shopping for what to wear yesterday and I was so freaking pissed.
The things that I liked are all either out of stock or no small size.
Shitty!!
I lost all my mood to shop and headed back home straight.
Damn it!!
( maybe that goes to show that I've overspent and its a sign to tell me to stop spending hor... )

Hmmmm....
Wat should I do next heh?

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Updates...

Its back to writing entries.

I miss that.

I'm back again, at least for now.

I'm doing something new, and its kinda fun.

I left my job as a Customer Service Officer in the beautiful spa in Taka.

I miss the job and the environment, though.

Especially the people there.

It was such a blessing that I have beautiful colleagues, & helpful & nice too.

I miss them.... =(

With a new boss, & a new environment & totally new tings to learn & catch up with, I'm taking it easy, one step at a time.

The new boss is nice, patient & funny man.

His birdae is on the 6th, and I am so lost as what to get him.

Should I just get him a card & a gift? or just a card? or just a gift?

Orang tengah "pokai" nie sibuk birdae dia lak...

Its only me & him in the office, so its kinda quiet & lonely.

Some more, he's leaving me next week, I'm gonna be left all alone, all on my own.

Seram nye!!!

& I have so much more to learn & catch up with.

Alamak!!

On a new note, I saw Big Momma House today by Martin Lawrence.

Its so cute & funny, & I like it.

I think I'm an easily contented person.

Semua movie pon cakap bagus, unless the movie made me sleepy, baru I say no good.

I lurve Final Destination 3, brutal maut!!!

Bsok busy day for me, a lot of stuffs to settle, & I'm getting all nervous and excited.

I dont know why.

Satu benda pon tak prepare. Padahal ada 1 wk.

Dapat tak dapat, nasib la.

Watever it is, wish me luck okie... heh...

I miss Irfan already.

This morning, when my mum was nagging at him about him being naughty, he said,

"Aku Jugak!!"

It made me laugh real hard.

We ( my siblings & I ) always said that whenever Ibu nagged or reprimand us.. & now, dia pon da terikut-ikut lak!!

The other day, I asked him, "Irfan buat pe pat ruma?"

& his reply was, "Buat bodoh la.."

OMG!! This kid is learning too much too fast.

Nasib baik bukan anak aku. Pening kepala.. ;p

I miss him... Have to wait till tomorrow before he comes back here again...

I-Pan, cepat la datang!!!


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I dont know why.. But I am definitely happy.. YOU ( you know whoever you are ) you should be happy to see me happy.. We all have problems, no matter how big or small, we choose to run or overcome it.. I moved on, I think you should too.. Its time.. I know its difficult, I am trying hard myself.. And I think I did it.. Slowly, but surely I moved on.. I feel good now.. I am sad, but no one knows.. I smile, so that everyone thinks I am happy.. I am angry, but I dont know how to show it.. I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go, and even if it kills me I'll still be smiling 12:30 PM · Monday, March 20, 2006 Changes There's a lot for me to change these days. So many things I wish to change. I dont know what, why & when I am gonna do it. But for sure, my life IS changing. For the better or worst, WHO knows? Well, its been exactly 10 days since I last updated my blog. My PC at home broke down on me, and I guess its time for me to get a new one. Super new one, and super lotsa money gonna be spent on dat new damn pc. I've been busy with lots of things. If u ask me to list in details, I cant answer that question. If u ask me why, its becos I dont know what I have been busy with. Its been a fun week. Its been a stressful week. Its been a busy week. Why? What? How? When? Most important of all, there has been lots of ups & down this week. I was ecstatic... I was upset... Iwas sad... I was angry... I was nervous... I was super-happy... I was confused... And for all these reasons, I am lost ( again... ) The upcoming week would be busier... Or am I? I love me, my life and myself.. And I have to prepare myself for something that may be better, but also worse. What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to react? What am I supposed to say? This is shitty. I'm a confused shit. I dont even know what I am talking about. But what's most important is, I AM HAPPY!!!!! 10:37 AM · Friday, March 10, 2006 I am bored.. I dont know what to do.. Feel like taking mc, but what the heck, today is the last day of work.. No plans for today, surprisingly, its the wkend Fad!! Should I go for dinner later? I feel like eating Sakae Sushi, I'm craving for the Salmon Sashimi. Yummie!! I miss them. The people at The Spa. I miss their laughter, their craziness, the fun, their smiles. I miss Sue, the person who always made me laugh out loud. =) I'm sure you are much happier in True 'Est. Well, life goes on and there is nothing much that is going on in my life at the moment. Everything else is the same. I'm a much happier person nowadays, and that is why I've put on weight. hehe.. I should have done it long time ago and not wait till now to make things happen. Well, I realised there is no point in regrets and you just have to learn that we humans are never perfect, and that we make mistakes all the time. Oh ya, before I forgot, yesterday, I saw someone whom I dont really fancy that much. It really looks like her, and I pretended not to see her. I dont know, the hatred is just in me. I dont care if she is older than me, but she should have known better than to interfere in other people's life, and especialy family. I dont hate her, cos I know it takes 2 hands to clap, but I just dont see eye to eye with her anymore. I dont care what she thinks, and I know that she thought that I didnt care much, but I guess, she is wrong. My family's still my family no matter how good or bad we all are. 2 more days for that tingy and I'm already so hyped up. I'm a nervous wreck, and I know that my time is up soon. I screw up the other day and I dont have any more confidence in moving on. But well, I know for sure that I'm not hoping so much to move on to the other stage, as much as I wanted the glitz and glamour. hahahaha.... So naive of me!! Well, I miss my brother. He's coming back from his camp today and after a week, I'm gonna see him!! Yahhoooo!!! & I miss Irfan, he's only gonna come on Sunday. The fatty bom-bom. I went shopping for what to wear yesterday and I was so freaking pissed. The things that I liked are all either out of stock or no small size. Shitty!! I lost all my mood to shop and headed back home straight. Damn it!! ( maybe that goes to show that I've overspent and its a sign to tell me to stop spending hor... ) Hmmmm.... Wat should I do next heh? 11:07 AM · Saturday, March 04, 2006 Updates... Its back to writing entries. I miss that. I'm back again, at least for now. I'm doing something new, and its kinda fun. I left my job as a Customer Service Officer in the beautiful spa in Taka. I miss the job and the environment, though. Especially the people there. It was such a blessing that I have beautiful colleagues, & helpful & nice too. I miss them.... =( With a new boss, & a new environment & totally new tings to learn & catch up with, I'm taking it easy, one step at a time. The new boss is nice, patient & funny man. His birdae is on the 6th, and I am so lost as what to get him. Should I just get him a card & a gift? or just a card? or just a gift? Orang tengah "pokai" nie sibuk birdae dia lak... Its only me & him in the office, so its kinda quiet & lonely. Some more, he's leaving me next week, I'm gonna be left all alone, all on my own. Seram nye!!! & I have so much more to learn & catch up with. Alamak!! On a new note, I saw Big Momma House today by Martin Lawrence. Its so cute & funny, & I like it. I think I'm an easily contented person. Semua movie pon cakap bagus, unless the movie made me sleepy, baru I say no good. I lurve Final Destination 3, brutal maut!!! Bsok busy day for me, a lot of stuffs to settle, & I'm getting all nervous and excited. I dont know why. Satu benda pon tak prepare. Padahal ada 1 wk. Dapat tak dapat, nasib la. Watever it is, wish me luck okie... heh... I miss Irfan already. This morning, when my mum was nagging at him about him being naughty, he said, "Aku Jugak!!" It made me laugh real hard. We ( my siblings & I ) always said that whenever Ibu nagged or reprimand us.. & now, dia pon da terikut-ikut lak!! The other day, I asked him, "Irfan buat pe pat ruma?" & his reply was, "Buat bodoh la.." OMG!! This kid is learning too much too fast. Nasib baik bukan anak aku. Pening kepala.. ;p I miss him... Have to wait till tomorrow before he comes back here again... *I-Pan, cepat la datang!!!* 10:21 PM ·