always.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Make me strong

Its funny how humans can be so different from each other.
We all have black hair, but deep inside, we all think differently, react differently and do many things differently.
There is a saying in malay.
" Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain"
Which directly means " Same hair colour, but different at hearts "
Its so true.

Im feeling kinda vexed now.
I dont know how to put it in words.
Its just that why are some people so petty?
Men especially?
( Though NOT ALL men are like that. Only a handful. )

Why is it that WE have to accept what THEY say and THEY cant accept what WE say?
Why is it that THEIR opinions are always RIGHT, and WE are always WRONG?

Why is it that after being together for so long, we should almost know how we talk, how we react, what we think, the way you like to do something, and bla bla bla.
The list goes on.
Why is it that he always expect me to understand his feelings and situation?
BUT
he never will understand ME.
When he say something that hurts me, and I tell him nicely about it, Im wrong for being too SENSITIVE?
And when I say something that doesnt mean anything, he thinks that I am not sparing a thought about how he feels!
WTF?
Isnt it unfair?

I know that is life, but after so long, things are not gonna change?
When he is sulking, I always make an effort to make him feel better.
And when I am sulking ( mind you, usually women sulk! ), he always sulk back at me and say many hurtful things!
And I ALWAYS end up saying SORRY for nothing!
Gawd!
The feeling really sucks.
Im crying as I typr this entry cos Im too hurt to think of all the things that he have said and done.
I try to talk things out, but it always never work.

I cry myself to sleep every other day thinking of what I can do to make it better.
I try to voice out my honest opinions about his attitude.
He cant accept it.
I try to tell him off as and when I think he is over doing it.
He cant accept it.
Subtle way, harsh way, I've tried it all.
Im so tired of doing everything that I dont have the energy anymore.

I know you are a very egoistic man.
Put it in simple terms, you are an MCP.
But me, your wife, and saying sorry.
Does saying SORRY means SO MUCH to you?

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What I gotta do to make you love me
What I gotta do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What I gotta do to make you want me
What I gotta do to be heard
What do I say when its all over
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Its sad, so sad, its a sad sad situation
And its getting more and more absurd
Its sad, so sad
why cant we talk it over
And it seems to me
Sorry seems to be the hardest word

" Ya Allah, berikan lah Aku kekuatan dan kesabaran menghadapi segala rintangan dan dugaan Mu, Ya Allah. Amin. "


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